you chose your parents..

​I sat on my reiki masters sofa and I cried. I told her it all and yet I'd known her less than a few weeks. She held space for me as I sniffled and tried to compose myself. Then she said words that I will carry with me forever.

 "You do know you chose your parents before you came here"

My facial expression must have given me away as per usual because she greeted my none verbal "What the fuck?!" with a warm smile. 

From that day I reminded myself, my friends and clients of this. "I chose my parents, I chose my parents, I chose my parents."

I doesn't mean I understood why at the time. It was just a way of reminding myself that the outcome, as always was based on my initial decision.  

You see my father is not very emotional. He has emotions don't get me wrong. It's just they aren't on the surface very often they are what I call under current emotions. 
Where as my mother, well her emotions are so close to the surface they overflow onto other peoples ships causing you to either sink or swim away.

Two totally opposite ends of the spectrum. One so open and one so closed. 

Now as I became a parent myself and understood that I chose them both. I can see that they were teaching me about honoring my emotions and about balance. Without seeing and experiencing this I would never have learn't this key lesson.

For which I am thankful for. 

No matter what your background or up bringing there is always a gift. It might be dirty and covered in rubble. But if you dig far enough you'll find it in there somewhere. Perhaps it made you stronger, taught you how not to be. Or maybe it lifted you up and gave you confidence.

However it was good or bad I guarantee it gave you all the tools you needed for today. 

Oceans of Love Cx

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